Tied in with this sense of being life’s failure there may also be a fear of being a sexual failure. This could stem from an earlier failure and the fear of it being repeated or from the anticipation of criticism from a malicious or hostile partner. (Many Go-Go men also live constantly with the fear of failing to perform well as they rush into each encounter hoping to prove their continuing virility).
Change of sexual desire too can at this time lead to a total lack of urge. Though it might not seem like it to a man whose changing attitude to life has started his questioning his sexual tastes, the fact that he cannot have the sexual style he wants may lead him to abstinence or reliance on masturbation. He may want a new young lover, for example, or to dabble in a gay relationship and feel frightened of making advances in that direction for fear of rejection or making a fool of himself. He would rather be abstinent than foolish.
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